hoo... wat can i start off again... lost the feeling of blogging again... was like 2 weeks didn't blog le... release tat ? haiz... wat time is it now leh... its 6.14am now... dots.... hmmm, just blog abt something else first bah...
ya... dunno how long will it be this time... coz going to write abt this 2 weeks de thing... but somehow... the feeling is missing bah... going to write them in a very short way bah... k, i think it was 25 april, i was slping in the afternoon (maybe morning then slp) when i got a phone call from bing... claiming tat they having a job now... just finish interview i guess... pay was quite high... just work for 4 days only... but when i'm sleeping... just very lazy to get up de, so i didn't agree to go down city hall straight away and interview tat job... continue sleeping ~ then i think abt 6+pm wake up... on com... then suddenly... think... aaaa... just now bing call me sia... offering a job... pay so high, why don't wan... then tat time also not working ma, just quit my pervious job... so later, i called bing and manage to get the contact num... call the person and was ask to come down interview the next day lor... which is thursday bah... bing accompany go coz i asked for it, and dunno how to go ma... so inteview, the job is explain as a IT promoter... so ask alot of my it knowledge... asking them in a very blur way lor... the lady who interview me also like... aaa, this person know abt computer anot de... haha, so just finish the interview in a very weird way bah... then went to tangs and find ck talk talk lor... auntie there was like very shock to see me like tat... coz very long nv go down le ma... haha... chat there quite long, mostly with auntie =x then move on to lucky plaza 6th and eat the chicken rice with bing then after tat, play pool over there... till abt 8+pm bah... Its so hurting when I saw the place we been before... totally can't take it in heart... kk, missed the part tat we actually got the call from the agent there and we were recuit !! omg lor... just interview abt mins ago then got the job =x the hour and timing was change... from the actual 3 days normal( 10am to 10pm, 2 hr break) $75 each day and 1 public holiday( same timing) $100... it was already very attracting in the first place but it gets even better when it change to 12-9pm , 1hr break, $80 each and labour day is 2 x normal pay = $160... wah !! so we got the job and start working on sat, sun, mon and tue(labour day)... hmmm... nth much happen during these 4 days... just very boring... its not selling IT at all... just the service... is like... a plan of $259, one year... a warrenty for your computer software... note, its like software of service... not things tat u spoil... the job just touches on things like com slow down, can't start up, virus, spyware, no internet connection, no wireless, software in com not functioning well... blah blah blah... actually, its just rubbish to me lor... so... actually, didn't manage to sell any of the plan... =x was really bored to dead... jobs were too simple, just try approach anyone and sell the plan... simply to do but difficult to sell... lolz, who will buy ??
That was abt job, during tat few days... think, dunno is friday bah, da jie, jie fu and bryan got come to have dinner together... as a early meal for er jie birthday... have dinner at coffeeshop lor... then aftertat... went home cut cake... btw, my er jie birthday is 1st of May... Labour day... heEx... then mahjong began... play play... mum and me tag coz she got work the next day and she decide to play the first half... then took over the place when i found out... actually she lost alot liao =x opps... got 40 as base, left 10+ when i sat down... haha... so just continue lor... in the end, i didn't win back... not dissappointed, but learn something out of it... card was nice... just didn't win... enjoy the process when my cards getting nicer... so.. in the end, lose, not sad... at least i didn't lose the process... sometime results... don't actually ans wat happen in the end... but in the process of it... yup... on monday night, came back from work... see my blog de tag, saw wat jie si tag... well... to be honest.. i not angry of wat she type... "a person who is a failure in relationship should not judge another ppl's relationship" wah... i saw tat... well first... was of coz shock... then i started off by saying tat in msn to her "Jie si... u no need to leave such a comment in my tag de ma... sound so sarcastic to me lor... haiz" ... kk, we argue abt tat for awhile, but tats no improtant coz i was just trying to say... fail in relationship doesn't mean cannot say others wat... i fail coz my ex break with me, then thoses who break before all fail in the relationship before wat... kk, drop tat sub... i got fed up coz she say tat similar words again...
"how long does each of your relationship last?"
"dont think yours should consider as a relationship"
"maybe a fling?"
when i saw tat... ya, angry... extremely... was like... wei, i didn't come disturb u, why disturb me by leaving such a tag in my blog, true tat tagboard for ppl to tag... but who in the hell will tag tat when we both just didn't get along well with each other... i mean... we recently just happened something ma... then come tag... who in her place will do tat... dunno la... she come tag i don't mind... but she repeat the similar words again the 2nd time ~ its damn hurtful if u didn't release tat... forgot the first time u said tat right... i rmb so clearly coz u the first person, first girl( a gf at the same time) who said tat to me... tat day was the so call class gathering at yanti hse... we didn't talk... u left first... at night, 9pm+ i recieve a sms from u... i didn't rmb it well... but it was something like.. "jeff, now then i know why all your past relationship didn't last le..." ya... i didn't angry coz i know u are angry of me, tats why u msg me tat... then now 2nd time say tat... pls la... u think i wan all my relationship to be tat... u think i wan break... k, added u in... i have 3 ex now and indeed, it sound so great to u coz none of them last over a mth... and its becoming a joke to everyone tat my relationship... is just getting shorter, u know the feeling ? u don't... from the first... 25 days... 2nd is 2 weeks... now u is just less tat 2 weeks... oh man, u think all of tat, i wanted, i asked for it ? haiz... i wrote all this down... not afraid to let u see... but wan to tell you... pls... u not happy with me of anything... just don't take out my past relationship and make fun of it... no offence or anything... we just started in a very wrong timing... and i made things even worst... so... just... sry...
The rest of the days... hmmm... most of the days... were just rotting at home... =x tat makes me so slack at home.... game, eat, slp... just very useless... hmmm... think got one sat, asked sheng to come my house coz he got nth on also... then we dl fairyland to play... then ben and Lida drop by... like come sit sit coz they were ard ma... then later alan, natee and ka chu came... they were ard too... didn't have things to keep them from bored, so... just open the mahjong table which they love most and just play with it... 4 ppl mahjong the rest use com... at night, called bing... asked him to come have supper together then later on can continue another round of mahjong, he just agree and came... well, ben and Lida did left first lor... i mean they left before having supper together... hmmm... as usual, play till mahjong... then went to eat breakfast... we split ways after tat lor... got one day, went roller blade with 2 pri sch fren bah... just roller blading ard... they are good at it man... i got to improve alot at roller blading... haha... last week, sat went to play mahjong, together with sheng take bus num 8... to near bing hse there meet bing and went to alan hse... started from afternoon... with my lunch having over at his place... then at night, planned to have movie with family at plaza sing... it was a 9pm show... "SpiderMan 3"... after a round of mahjong, it was 6+pm so we decided to continue, maybe just another half round... so play play play... we ended the half round at abt 8.15pm lor... so kan chiong coz cannot late ma... da jie will be very angry if i late for movie coz of mahjong haven finish ma... so... i just took cab lor... from his place pasir ris to PS... lucky, win alot... so got money take cab =x... then heng... reach there, 8.45pm... they were eating at Agisha(dunno how to spell) then i just have the time to order a meal and finish it fast lor... the movie last for 2.30 hr... quite nice... dunno why da jie can fall aslp... =x hahaha... then after tat... split ways again, er jie and larree(bf) go his place... da jie, jie fu, bryan need to go back home... da jie take cab home ma... so, give me a ride to pasir ris coz called alan on the way, they don't mind ton at his place, so went there continue =x... haha... so just play over there until morning again... everyone were half dead... hahaha... in the end... me have a breakfast over sheng downstair de coffeeshop... he ke lian sia, still got to go work... ah yo...
Missed the part of Celebrated Mother's day on last week friday, eating at gelang de "No Signboard Seafood" with family and grandma(mum de mum)... just have a simply dinner over there lor... heEx...
Missed the part tat i did went for army de medical checkup... but was giving a Pes d... which actually means pending... got called them, ask why pes D... then they say... dunno wat other pes to give me, so need to wait for 1 mth before they decide... siao... not Pes A then at least give me a Pes B la... not fit enough meh... wan do one hand push up let him see ma =x... everything seems to be fine during the checkup leh... the last station... need to pull down pants... then cough... well, tat was ok also wat... he just as normal say... good... haha... like so weird... to let him see my brother... although i had been warned before hand from others... tats why i know he going to ask for tat... but still feel very weirdo... haha... then keep on asking me got any heart problem all this... diao... in the end put pes D... shit lor... waste 1 mth waiting... still got abt 2 more weeks...
Its 8.40am le wor... wah... type too much again... =x
haiz... this few days, my sleeping time completly change le... always need to wait till morning or afternoon then can fall slp, i mean in the night and midnight... i can't slp... haiz... then mum so angry coz i keep on not slping in the night and play com till morning... i don't wan to... but always when i laid on bed... i start thinking all over again... and tears just quicky forming... the only way i can get to slp is just making my body suffer and fall slp quickly so tat i don't even have the time to think... haiz... thinking of wat... don't wish to write down bah...
Tat day when family finish mahjong, me and er jie and larree shared a bed... but just as i lay down and face my back at er jie... tears just fall and fall and fall... she didn't realise i would cry and cry right beside of her... i dunno why i couldn't hold my tears... i could only force myself not to make any sound... i can't alert them... i can't let them know i'm crying... it just came so sudden... then i lay abt 15min without stopping my tear... i went to the kitchen and get myself a drink... da jie haven slp... she was using the com, but she didn't release i came out of the room with my tears on the face... she didn't release i was crying when she went to the toilet halfway using com and i was standing at the window there, crying... she asked why still don't wan slp... i could just simply reply... soon soon... i cried... alone... my tears nv finish... i cried... i don't need sympathy from others... and indeed, tats nt i wanted and needs...
I just can't get over this... I just need to say out everything and spare me the last chance to cry out everything and pain i'm having... I just need the right person to be there... I just need tat ears and just beside me... Just listen to me... tat is more than enough... I only could think of you...
Can you help me ?
Would you be there ?
