Wat shld i update leh....
Hmmm... recently just past my birthday and next will be Ahbing le wor... haha...
On 31th oct, family celebrate my birthday for me lor... at east coast there eat dinner... dunno wat japanese restaurant la... lolz... A birthday cake was presented !! Thanks for the treat by Da jie and Er jie !! [Was quite some times since i last saw da jie... dunno why leh... i do miss her... and as usual... she's still busy with her work and do often go oversea... haha... she wun forget to bring us something, everytime she went for business trip... anyway, she suggest to go for holiday during the coming chinese new year coz, its a long weekend tat starts from thursday friday and then continue on with sat and sun... so, a great chance for them to go holiday... and most likely, i'm wun be joining them coz of army de thing... still can't comfirm la... but good la... if nv go then can ask brothers and frens come my hse to lose money for me =x !! hehe... i'm looking forward on chinese new year !!]
On 1st Nov... treat my Brothers and some frens eat lor... just nearby my area lor... then after tat they apply some cakes and creams on my face la... lolz, let them play coz i know can't run de la... haha... after tat, go up carpark and play flour, eggs, ice-creams and water lor... i should say, everyone was involve and gets dirty la... i'm the most dirtiest de la... lolz... all smash on me... hahaha... but i not bad la hor... will counter ok... heEx... was a fun night... finish off everything when all went to my hse... and some get wash up before going off... lolz...
On 2nd Nov... My ex-colleague organise and plan out a dinner at city-links de asian chinese restaurant to help me celebrate birthday bah... got "Pearlyn, Jolene, Ck, Sheng and me" lor... just a normal dinner and after that walk around raffles city mall before going off lor... ck and lucas gift is "calvin klein" underwear wor... and for the two girls... is a necklace... very cool wor... haha... thanks guys... heEx...
lolz... this birthday celebration was definitely a great one from my family, frens and brothers... I really appreciate it alot alot... they're just a prefect gift for me before going army le... really... thanks arh... !!
Was surprise tat day when dad realise, it was my birthday... though he didn't brought anything for me... but he just took out his wallet and pull a $50 note then place it on my computer table... i know he still cares la... mmmmm... =)
Another special gift i recieved, was from SQ... haha... thanks wor... its really so touching when i first saw that... hahaha... really very nice... and the special names u gaven for them... i'll rmb de... I really love it... no doubts for tat... and came to release... did any girls i like, give me things before ?? or any of my ex did ?? i only rmb oreo de present tat year... the cup she gave to me as a present... i really appreciate it so much... tat up till now, i'm still have it... i'm still using it... i'll still use it from time to time... hmmm... 2 years le bah... lolz... so... i would say... SQ, thanks so much... don't worry tat i will forget it after years or something... coz i dunno how to =x... heEx...
This family is slipping... is falling and i know... i'm standing beside my mum and move on with her and Da jie, Er jie... i dunno how should i stop all this from happening in the first place... i dunno how... all i know is, tears... a fucking idiot jeff tat only knows how to cry... but soon... now... i realise everything... begin to accept the fact and i'm doing it as time passes... will still complain and grumble about it from time to time... but no choice de la... when everything is done... when this house is sold, i only hope tat dad can be able to take good care for himself coz i know... he'll be living outside... dunno alone ? or with other ppl ? just do take care... and in the future... i got to be successful and i know... i will find you... i will still provide the needs for you... coz... no matter how wrong u did... how bad u had affected the whole family... had affected me... you're still my dad... i still got more to work for... to work hard... still years for me to earn enough income to support family... but i'm just moving on... its ok...
The Eyes in me, saw my mum and dad... they are just growing old... and in the future... they ain't going to support each other till they grow very old anymore... i got to take charge and be accompany with mum always with my spare time... i'm so afraid she'll be bored and without the company... without her partner... my dad... i know she love this family alot... she love dad and this house alot... and her feelings and pressure is millon times more than how bad i'm feeling... so, i know... i got to be just a good son... to take care of her and at the same time... to keep her accompany without dad... i try what i can do, mum... be strong... =) daddy... in the future... i dunno how i could spare out my time... and how could i meet you the next time and you can see how successful your son had did... i pray tat everything will be fine for you and i work hard and hopefully one day... i could show you... i'm success... i did something to let you be proud of... =)
So many things we hope not to happen... not to be happening on us... but sometime... its within our control and we could only accept them than staying there... crying... complaining abt it... maybe in the begining... tat behavior could be accepted... but if so much time and time is given for you... the problem is just laying on yourself, not to wake up and move strong... but time just heals everything... different ppl in different problems takes different time to heal... but always got to keep in mind tat life need to move on coz... You just live 1 time...
No restart,
No moving backwards,
No turing back the clock...
Thats why ppl say... live like everyday is a gift and live to the fullness... live like everyday is the last day... at least wun regret so much if something just happen to you... than staying at there emo... fail and fall doesn't matters... the key is tat... you got to try wat you could do... and get back on your feets... move on strong...
I hate life... i hate living... i feel tat its a torture for me to live everyday... because, things around me isn't any better that i expected it to be... isn't wonderful tat i hope it could be... and everytime when problems arise when i fail and fall... its so much difficult to stand up again...
Sometime, things and problems isn't on your fault... but it just so unfair to happen it on you... you can't do anything and find no reason where you are wrong... but... its just life... tats just how humans and humans created problems and problems... I always believe tat god is fair... but everytime when i tot my chance is here... the time to be fair for me, has finally arrive... i was wrong again... i would just say... its another beginning to be unfair for me... why isn't god proving for wat i always believe in... i just don't understand...
Sometime... we got to expect little, live simply... that helps a lot... =)
Its 1:03am now... consider wed... STUPID !! can sat arrive faster !! Hrumphhhhh !!
Between you and me... what are we...
This game, needs you and me to continue...
We are so happy, neither of us want it to end...
But in order to win... you know... you are holding the key...
I'll not rush you... coz I want... us to win without regrets ok... =)
Faster come back la !! Da Da Arh !!
This song, for you... I'm waiting for you !!
